Posting #91- Randall's Story

By: Randall
Date:  06/02/2009

RSOL of Virginia,

I'm happy to know that someone out there is making the effort to try to get some common sense legislation enacted. 

If I may vent a moment, as I don't talk to people anymore than I have to, outside my friends, which I don't have a lot of anymore as I try to stay out of public as much as possible.  This is difficult as my job as a ______________ for a small independent ______________ company requires I spend my days in ____________ stores.  While in these stores I do everything I can to avoid engaging people beyond what is necessary.  I constantly and I mean constantly, while in public fear that someone will notice me from the registry and inform others of my situation.

 ______________ is a small town and I find myself wondering if the person is already aware and has just not mentioned it.  I haven't spoken to a woman in any intimate manner for years, and have learned to live with the fact I probably never will.  This is odd because prior to the point in time where my status was changed to violent, I was very outgoing, and at the risk of sounding conceited, I was liked by almost every person I met.  I do all I can to make it from day to day but loneliness is misery, and I find my situation so desperate that I find myself considering ending it more and more frequently. 

 I haven't been out to dinner, a movie or any club or concert for over five years.  I’m trying desperately to find a way to make a living where I will not have to leave home, because of the anxiety of being in public.  I have lost jobs, over this, I managed a ___________ store for four years, the location of which was in close proximity to a dance studio, years later I went back to that same location to work as a part time cashier, that lasted two weeks before someone complained and I was fired, because in the interim, the state decided to reclassify me as violent. 

I had a job as a car salesman, and it wasn't weeks before total strangers to me were calling the dealership asking how they could employ someone like me.  I know it wasn't someone that was directly involved, as my accuser herself has stated that the legislation requiring registering is foolish and extreme. She still hasn't dealt with the fact that she told many half truths and made the accusation entirely to break up the marriage between her mother and me.

In my current position a couple of clients have found out about my registration status and asked that I not service their accounts...the list goes on and on, but I'm sure you heard it all before.  Right now my boss is understanding of my situation and has stated that unless this becomes too much more of an inconvenience I can continue to work there.  Of course the job only pays about $20,000 a year and comes with no benefits.  This in fact makes our employer/employee relationship work, owing to the fact if he were to hire anyone in a different situation, they wouldn't do what I do for what he pays, comparable positions pay twice as much.

Anyway, thanks for listening and of course I wish you the best in your efforts.

Sincerely
Randall